having a chat with stan now ... the bike's finally been transferred to his name! haha glad that the bike's finally yours man! remember to ride carefully dude =)

read jean's blog just now, about her feeling lonely and having no one to confinde in. well, i'm actually surprised that someone else other then me feels this way. i remember telling dom about this sometime ago, that our group of friends have somehow reached a roadblock; we've gotten much closer as compared to before, no doubt about that, but somehow, we can't seem to grow any closer. was talking to jean about it and she attributes it to the lack of personal encounters with each specific individual; possible i guess, but not for my case. i just can't seem to trust anyone enough to divulge or share my private emotions and thoughts. no offence and sorry if i insult anyone who's reading this, but yah ... i have a problem with trusting others. i guess no matter how much i want to trust or tell someone, something just stops me from saying or sharing. sometimes i really feel like i cannot hold onto it anymore, that constant cramming of secrets is gonna make me implode at anytime; yet cynical thoughts would just flood my mind, like what if i accidently leak out something that ends up hurting me or the people around me that i care about? or if i made an error in my judgement and the other party goes blabbering or spreading what i've told him/her? such is the mental struggle that goes on in my mind. i'm tired.