why is it that unfortunate events always bring along with them more unfortunate stuff? one after another they just dump themselves onto your lap. why is it even happening? i cannot take it anymore. no more of all this shit. one more bit of all this crap, and i'll really breakdown. i just simply cannot take it anymore.

looks like i was wrong. the only person I can depend on, other than God, is myself. no one else will ever fully understand what i'm are going through.

maybe its a punishment for something i did. or i am being taught a lesson. i don't know.

so there. you've said it yourself.
no one else will be there to lift you out of the slum that you are in.
pick yourself up.
or just stay there and rot.