random thoughts.

why can't i be more aware of things in my surrounding? it really sucks to be the last one to know things. especially when everyone around me seems to know something already. except me.

its not my fault is it, that i am less inclined in this aspect? that i have arrested developement when it comes to sensing how or what others are thinking. the first time this happened, i thought it was a one off occurance. and then it happened again, and again, and again. why must there be so much hidden meaning in everything? why can't things be simpler? wouldn't that make things so much better for everyone else? to not have to doubt, question and think/re-think things over and over again.

i value simplicity, over many other things.

its been quite awhile since "To Pa with Love" ended and i guess all of us are slowly easing back and adapting to life without QP. i do remember the cast people saying how nice it'd be to be able to remain as close friend even after the show. to share the kind of chemistry and bond we share when we were performing. that magical feeling. but now as i look back, i guess it was just a distant dream, a performance high. its only been 2 weeks and already people are drifting. am i thinking and expectiing too much?

i genuinely believed it then.