was reading a few of my friends' blogs and i suddenly realise how much our worlds have drifted apart. its as though they are moving on so far; into places that i won't foresee myself going into. interesting what a couple of years apart can do.

had ministry day in church today and i got to meet my group for the first time. with crystal as my ATL, my group members include lydia, bryan, wilson, darius, luke, joshua, natalie, jean, vanessa, joel. a very interesting ensemble i must say, and i feel that they have so much potential in them. potential to do big things. really give thanks for each and every single one of them.

yet on the other hand, with no one that i can claim as being very close to, i guess thats one of the reason why i'm feeling uncertainty now. uncertainty in my own ability to be a good leader. so much that i want to do and accomplish; but how do i get there? certainly not on my own. that i know for sure.

had worship practice with my class after YF. could see that most of them were tired/hungry/frustrated/stoned towards the end. hope that sunday's practice would be better. meet joan koh and ended up having a little "wager" with her.

the bet: was it a Honday CRX Del So or a Honda Prelude?
the prize: a mini pint of Ben n Jerry's.
no prize for guessing who won(read: ME).

yum yum ... the new york super fudge tasted really good!!!

on another note, things haven't been going really well for me recently. academically, i haven't been doing well and somehow, i'm starting to doubt my own abilities. in anything, everything. can't seem to do anything right. big or small. mental and physical lerthargy is starting to set in and i'm fighting to stay afloat.

and its in such a situation that a question arises. who am i in all of your eyes?

kinda realise that my post is very messy. too tired to organise everything already. gonna go try and get some shut eyes. good nite.