"love thy neighbour", it is said in the Bible; love your brothers and sisters, i am told. but yet i find it so hard to do it. why now of all times? never used to have much trouble letting go and forgetting things. not this time thou; i know its so un-Christ and i'd like to just let it go. i've tried .... but its not working. everytime i thought i'd gotten over it, something just happens, to make it all come back. an action, words, behaviour? i don't know ... so frustrating. am i drifting away from you Father?

pray for me ....