just read one of my friend's blog. don't really know why, but at that moment, i couldn't help but envy her ... being able to sing as a chorister, performing on stage. i told myself 3 years ago that i've had enough; that i had to stop. was getting too tired and worn out to go on singing. it was an indefinite hiatus; did not give myself any dates or what so ever. and never did i expect it to last for 3 years. and so here i am; what right do i have to be jealous? t'was myself that had chosen to let it go to begin with. so what should i do now? should i sing again? i miss my committee, my SATB, my conductor. the frustration of not hitting the correct notes in order to achieve the harmony. the sense of accomplishment when we master a difficult piece. the irritation that boils within me when my chatty sops n altos refuse to shut up during practices. i miss the sectionals, where 10 guys would look at each other and wonder how in the world are we going to compete when there are only 5 guys in tenor and 5 in bass. i miss my choir ...