a new officer got posted in to my unit and i just found out that he's one of the 4 SEA games relay team swimmers who won a gold medal at the SEA games meet recently. he's my age and i think most of you girls will find him quite cute if you get the chance to meet him =P oh and lynette, he's got at least a 6 pack, if not 8~! swimmer mah .. typical V shaped build. he's army life quite interesting ... he comes to camp at 10am and leaves at 3pm. so shiok~ the rest of the time he goes to the pool and trains ... not bad sia!

just found out a certain truth that really makes me sick. i was initially requested by my new boss to go along to NZ because he said that he needed someone to do computation of certain firing missions. apparently, when i get to NZ, not only will i be doing computation work, i will also have to partake in settling the various logistic issues! i mean come on man ... it ain't easy for me to do all the computation work since its not within my job scope and will never be; i have to learn it from scratch lor and within such a short time frame. this is the kind of stuff they teach in OCS artillery course and the course spans over a FEW months. now they come and tell me that i have to carry out other duties as well? it seriously isn't fair man. this whole issue is being forced down my throat since i'm not even allowed to withdraw from it ... i try to be nice and help out as much as i can ... but it gets damn sickening when people take advantage of the situation man. but i tell you, nothing beats stupid arrows from people whom you know well and are quite good friends with, but are in a position of higher authority. the best example is this officer from my unit, who's just a few years older then me. despite the rank difference, we're quite good friends and can talk without resorting to much formalities, but he ALWAYS give me damn stupid arrows and ALWAYS at the wrong time; like when i'm about to go home, or when i'm super busy. it really pisses me off cause i can't get mad at him since he's a friend, but i also cannot push it away cause he's a friend! a bloody dilemna that always leaves me with a mega headache. oh well ... i guess its this is a reflection of the harsh working conditions of society ... its a dog eat dog world out there i guess. nothing i can do .. other then to pray for guidance and strength. gotta keep reminding myself that all this is merely temporal. God is good. All the time.

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there was this girl on whom i had a MAJOR crush on when i was in JC; it started all the way from year one and lasted for more then 2 years plus. so much so that i nearly thought i was in love with her. well anyway, she left for the States after A levels, and i thought that'd be the last time i'll see her. well .. i thought lah .. but i was wrong. i just saw her again on sunday. while i was with lyn, viv, wj at pacific plaza. we were heading down the escalator and she was going up; din realise she was there, and i guess she saw me first lah cause i had this feeling that someone was looking at me, so when i looked up ... lo and behold. there she was. she still looks like the icy creature she was back then, only even slimmer. i caught her eye for a second before i quickly looked away ... dunno why also .. haha. and i keep walking on. a part of me asked me to turn and look at her one more time ... but haha .. for what? talked to another friend who was her ex classmate later on that day, and this friend told me that i seemed to bump into her EVERYTIME she comes back to Singapore during her study breaks (i usually sms this friend to annouce that i just saw HER). asked me if i believed in fate ... haha fate? nah i don't think so. its something that people make up to cover up their own shortcomings and things that they do not want to face. anyway, i think this infatuation has gone on long enough and is not doing me any good. time to end this thing ...