its true that trust has to be earned, but imho, thats not entirely true; i mean for my case, i'd start by giving someone a certain amount of trust and then i'll take things from there by seeing how things work out. my logic maybe flawed but this is how i think; one side has to start trusting .. if both party are untrusting, then the friendship would be so superficial. if the other party reciprocrates the trust i've shown. there'll be progress. if not .. then it'll just stay at the same level. but this logic doesn't work on everyone. or rather, most people cannot use my way of thinking for themselves. its a risky situation and its very easy to misjudge characters; over the course of my schooling years till present time, there have been a handful of times when i've misjudged people. too naive maybe, but i choose to believe in the goodness that is in people.

jacinth: keep in mind that there is no absolute; just like what i said the other day, if God's will for you is to have a partner here, what can you do about it? so i think the best is for you to pray about it and take things as it comes. don't set limits for yourself and deny yourself of opportunities that present themselves to you.

things have been happening to me recently and seriously, i haven really been myself. a thousand thoughts haunt me almost everynight, many issues vie for my attention and i couldn't concentrate properly in anything. had a good chat with my sister 2 nights ago and she gave me some insights to myself that i never realised. apparently, i'm someone who is easily misunderstood because its not easy for people to understand me. i dunno if what she says is true .. but i guess i won't try and do anything to change who i already am. thanks for the assurance gav. you might not realise it, but the talk i had with you last week did have a positive effect on me, and i'm really thankful to God for putting you in my way.